FiReFLiEs :B

"Before you met me i was a fairy princess
I caught frogs and called them prince And made myself a queen
Before you knew me i traveled 'round the world
I slept in castles and fell in love Because i was taught to dream
I found mayonnaise bottles and poked holes on top
To capture tinkerbell
They were just fireflies to the untrained eye
But i could always tell

I believe in fairytales and dreamers dreams like bed sheet sails
And i believe in peter pan and miracles And anything i can to get by
And fireflies"
-Faith Hill






Well! I made it! :)I am currently in Bellefontaine, Ohio.
I made it through an incredibly hard semester packed with 20 credits and weekly long clinical hours. It was one of the most difficult and rewarding times in my life so far. I've learned so much.
But through that learning and endurance I felt I had started to lose much of who I was. I've always been a dreamer, but lately I've become more of a realist. The medical world changes people. I missed things like compassion and appreciation coming easy. I've learned so much and changed for the better, but I missed cultivating much of who I am and want to be.
So, I needed a bit of a break. :) The opportunity came to come out east for the summer break with my roomate Bethany and I am so glad I have. I miss home and the people there, but it has been a great break. :)

We endured a 29 hour car-ride across the wild west. :) I never thought so much land could look so identical!!!! Since arriving here I've attended a catholic wedding, LDS branch, learned that Buck-eyes are the best desert EVER! Better than Reeses Luna ;), chilled with the Amish (buggy crossing signs right across the street!;), gotten a Henna tatoo, Ridden horses (my favorite! They're right outside my window :) visited Michigan, milked a goat, and caught fireflies. :)

I've learned so much in so little a time. I've jumped off the 90 mile an hour conveyer belt of life and am soaking in the world around me. I love the church history here. You can feel it in the air. I love reading my scriptures, looking out my window to the wheat fields below, knowing Zion's camp marched through this very town, and so many key pieces of gospel and scripture were restored here. The Sacred Grove is so tangible. I love that everyone is welcome and loving, no matter religion, race, or way of life. I've learned to embrace those around me (quite literally, they are quite big on hugging here :) And I've loved every minute of it.

I'm grateful for this opportunity to re-catch a few of the fireflies in my life. :)

Life Beginning

I turned in my Graduation Application and can't fully express the emotions that came with it. A new chapter in my life is readily advancing and I'm antsy and excited all at once. I don't know what the next door in life will be. But I can't wait to open it. :)


I'm so grateful for BYU Idaho and the many memories and lessons it has brought me. I have loved my time here. I love the spirit of the campus, the people.


I'm grateful for the opportunity to grow closer to my family, to gain appreciation for them. For their help in my transition between childhood and adulthood. I'm so grateful to know they are always there. :)


I'm so grateful for my family at the Fire Department and the training I've recieved. Though this chapter in my life is soon ending, I will always remember my training, and the confidence and capability I've recieved.


I'm so grateful for my ward, for the first time in my life being so close to my Bishopric, my Relief Society girls, my opportunity to serve. It has strengthened me so much. I KNOW this gospel is true. I'm grateful for the opportunity to have it with me every hour of every day.


Though I'm not entirely sure what the purpose of these years of preparation have been for, I know that He has directed me in them. I am not scared of the future for I know He is in it. :)



I was watching my favorite movie again last week, and couldn't help but empathize this part yet again. :)
"I want so much more than this provincial life, I want adventure in the great wide somewhere, I want it more than I can tell. :)"

Let life begin!

My HaPpY LiSt

-Dreyer's Strawberry popcicles,
-Plane take offs and landings,
-Made Beds
-Bristol Road
-Being Barefoot,
-Fresh Oranges
-Campfires, roasting starbursts,
-Daffodils
-Riding through the mountains on horseback
-Curling up under clean covers after shaving your legs
-Stadium lights
- Cache Valley's afterglow when it hits the mountainsin the summer right before sunset ...
-The atmosphere of the East Coast.
-The legacy and history of the United States...from our founding fathers.
-Driving with the windows down, the radio blaring and sunglasses on
-Fireworks
-Cold Pillows
-The moments when you laugh and cry at the same time
-Warm summer rain
-Natural Ice Cherry Chapstick
-Checking off your to-do list
-Big Bear Hugs
-A Good worn in pair of jeans
-Ben & Jerry's Oatmeal Cookie Chunk Ice Cream :)
-Lights and sirens
-My baby blanket
-Suntans
-Kickin up some dirt, fourwheeling :)
-Swinging, you're never too old!
-Gordon B. Hinckley's voice
-Getting on the freeway, sitting in the drivers seat
-Fresh Pineapple
- Getting to the top of the mountain and sitting there for an hour looking at the view
-Ferris Wheels
-Brown eyes
-Chili's Chips and Salsa
-Spontaneous Road Trips
-Dancin in the rain
-Piggy Backs
-Le Nonne
-The 'ONE, TWO.... THREE' before the boat pulls you up above the water on a pair of Skiis
-Warm gooey Banana Bread
-Stage lights
-Running with all your might to the beat of a song
-Sushi (tempura rolls)
-Packing for Vacations
-Getting mail
-The innocent smile and giggle of a little kid
-Lipstick Roses
-Walking on campus knowing who you are and where you're going. Not just at the moment... but in life
-Spontaneously gettin dirty :) haha.. mud fights....and water fights, where everyone loses :) the time we fell in the pond, fourwheelin trips
-Night games on hot summer nights
-Belle
-Listening to an amazing song on repeat all day long :)
-Getting a stamp in a passport
-The first and last day of school each year
-Sneaking out the back door at 3 am to sleep on the tramp with my little sis
-Doing something for someone they couldn't do for themselves
-Filling every moment with a memory.

Paramedicine

Paramedics:

Every time I tell people what I'm going into, the first response is "how can you handle that?". I never know how to respond. It is such a bittersweet job, in every way possible. And yet, I woudn't have it any other way.

Why I chose it:

I've always dreamed of becoming a Doctor, ever since I was little. But being a girl, wanting a family, the schooling, among other reasons... it just wasn't feasable.
I did an internship at Treehouse Pediatrics in highschool and loved every mintue of it! I LOVE working with kids, and would love to use my knowledge and skill to help in developing countries. It was there that I learned about the Physician's Assistant field. With only two years of school (post bachelors), good pay and hours, and being able to practice like a doctor, it was perfect! It's been my goal ever since!
I finished my genereals in high school to get some schooling out of the way, but couldn't decide on a bachelor's degree?
Nursing made sense but didn't feel right? Health science Social Work or Chemistry also made sense, but I needed medical experience?
And then everything just came together. I watched the movie the Guardian, and felt an overwhelming sense of duty, then while at a PA society meeting when they discussed a new degree at BYUI, a Bachelors in Paramedicine. It just clicked. I wasn't sure I'd be able to handle it, but I knew it was right.

Being in the major I am has helped strengthen me in everyway possible.

Physically: I am more conscious of my health and ability, and always trying to improve

Socially: I have gained a FAMILY at the station, some of the best most admirable people I know. They continually guide and teach me, laugh and enjoy life, and help me when times are rough.

Spiritually and emotionally: I have never been closer to my Savior. I KNOW I could not do what I do EVERY DAY without him. It is beyond my capabilities. In IV training, in Fire training, in being at work, clinicals and school nonstop, in putting my calling first, and in being spiritually and emotionally capable to handle the calls and experiences I have to. He is constantly with me, and I am so grateful for that.

Having one of my best friends in high school killed in a car accident, has made me ponder a lot about what I do.
I have had many discussions with people about whether or not my job is even worth it, everything is in God's hands, and live or die, it is up to Him?

That is my role, to be His hands when He needs me, when a drunk driver runs a red light and someones daughter was not supposed to be hit.
And when it is their time to go, I have peace in knowing I did all I could, and our Heavenly Father called them home.

I bare testimony that ALL trials are for our good, if we see the good in them. They make us stronger, more humble, but most of all, they turn us to Him.

I see and witness experiences every day that testify of that.

Some time ago, while working in an ER, I had the experience of giving a death sentance, Terminal Cancer. I was so impressed with the response. Gratitude and humility were expressed rather than anger and resent. Inactivity turned into faith and then testimony.


My job reminds me EVERY DAY of my family, my friends, my health, my prosperity, my ability to use my talents to serve, my many blessings, and my Savior.

I am so grateful for it all.

A Whole Year!

Parker hit his one year mark. I'm so happy and proud of him. He's done so well and is working so hard. I can't believe how much time has gone by and how much has changed, but all for the better. :) I wouldn't have it any other way. I love that boy!

I'm a Newbie!

I'm not married, and have no kids, which is what most people use these for. :) But I'd like to try to keep a better journal. So whether or not anyone reads this, I appreciate the opportunity to write a bit down and document my life.
Let Blogging Begin! :)